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[Monday, 6th February, 2006 @ 7:29pm] 8765

[Wednesday, 1st February, 2006 @ 5:48pm] and since i wont be here tomorow 9

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[Monday, 2nd January, 2006 @ 1:20am] i went kayaking the other day and i dunno fuck this cuz this songs good and i cant listen and type at the same time

[Monday, 26th December, 2005 @ 2:22pm] ok so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so s o there we go since my last update.ha no fucking way but i ran away from the shelter and then fucked myself up for a few months then i went and lived with brian and i loved it there but i was bored a lot sometimes then i went sleding and some cops stoped by and brian went to jail and i went back to safe harbor there for a month was i and now im at steves house for a month and then ill most likely be a run away for a few weeks then my gma will sign my money over to me and ill have to finally decide what the hell im doing the fucking end

[Monday, 22nd August, 2005 @ 7:45pm] people make me sick anyone that reads this already knows whats going on with me so i see no point in repeating it so im not going to but if you read this and you dont know whats going on than im sorry but id suggest stop reading it cuz that means you dont come into my thoughts atleast once a day and therefor i dont give a fuck about you..but right now im at the library in west palm and this fucking girl net to me..omg!!!!!!!!! i want to fucking kill her..shes new at safe harbor and today she became my roommate cuz her room at no sink and i think im gunna ask if i can move into her old room cuz seriously this isnt going to work..i took a piss test today and friday i have to go for the assesment and ill find out if i can go live at sarahs or if i have to go to rehab..sarah and matt and chris came and saw me yesterday =) i love them all except i dont think matt knows i love him cuz ive never told him and i doubt i ever will cuz hell probably never talk to me or something..hes weird like that..very unpredictable (but not really i guess)..or that hell think im like madly in love with himcuz i kinda always thought he thought that and was weirded out by it or something kinda..but im not =( sadly..i wish i was madly in love with someone though no actually i wish someone was madly in love with me and was as hott as matt cuz then i think id be pretty fucking happy as long as they were cool and not like stalkerish and shit ya know..and chris =DDDDDDD i saw him for the first time since the mizner incident and i missed him so much but we didnt really talk about much and that kinda makes me sad but we still had fun and i got lots of cigarettes and i made this contraption so i can have them on me but if they search me or think im smoking they cant find them and its weird and a little bit uncomfortable but it does the job..and i love sarah too but i feel like if i repeat that more than 500 times in a week i might have a problem but i say it anyways and hten i just give an excuse as to why i didnt say it earlyer and i hate being at the library cuz i make my self laugh sometimes for no reason and people dont take to kindly to that in public places of silence............................when i first got here i was so depressed and shit and maybe it had to do with me being sober for an extended period of time for the first time in a while..i dunno..but now like im just so pissed off at everything..im not even kidding and things are getting better too..like i have cigarettes and i saw sarah and them and shit and im leaving in the longest 3 weeks and thats not really that long but i dunno i really feel like i need anger management now..jk cuz i dont believe in any of that kind of shit..drugs are to get fucked up on not to fix your fucked up head and therapy is bullshit and stuff..thats just how i am and i have to go pick up some mexican from school now so byw 1

sarahsarahsarahsarahsarahsarah [Wednesday, 29th June, 2005 @ 2:48pm] im listeneing to matt and sarah talking and half of the shit i cant hear and then like half i can and its making me laugh and she told me to come in there but im updating so i told her no and so now im going to go in there and that was the most retarded thing i think ive ever writen but actually it probably isnt 2

[Saturday, 25th June, 2005 @ 12:44pm] im so happy its a long story and shit and no one reads this anymore i think cuz everyones a sell out and got themselves myspaces and they should go back to livejournal cuz they just should but actually i dont really care either way but ya so like im not ever alowed to live at my moms and they dont want me at my gmas either and im living with grant for the time being and there is this like investigation thing going on with my mom and shit and so like yay! it finally happened..im out and on tuesday grants going to cali for like 4 days so sarah if you read this im coming to live with you for that time ok =) and now i have to go get some money if i can so bye

if trying to keep a family together just makes things worse..whats the point? [Wednesday, 25th May, 2005 @ 6:22pm] haha im updating lots of shit has happened over the past however long its been since ive updated im still in love with sarah i got arrested cuz my mother is a stupid crazy whore..i stayed at sarahs for a while when her mom came and got me out and then i had to go back home..that didnt work out very well and i live at my gmas now..which is better than being at my moms but still sucks and now im at the library waiting for a half hour so i can walk to a train station and go to an anger management class..i have to go to 14 of them and todays my first but its stupid and i want to go play with sarah not go learn how to manage my anger that i personally think is quite justified considering the fact that i hate my mom and have every right to be extreamly angry at her and all..plus im not extreamly angry..just a little angry at her..i wish someone would make her go away i got a kitten too..=) its so cute and furry and i love it but im not allowed to see it cuz its at my moms and she said i cant see it even though she said i can..try and figure that one out for me if you would ok well im gunnna go have fun =) ohh ya and i kinda got a tattoo but not really cuz chris did it for me and i went swiming the next night and so i think there isnt any ink still in it but i like it anyways and thats all that matters 2

4 20 [Thursday, 21st April, 2005 @ 8:27pm] the night before me and grant did a favor for this dude and he gave us a presant and that was cool and we stole something from an old lady which was funny and then matt came and spent the night and i didnt get to bed till like 4 and then missy and brooke came over and then matt ryan came and then jason and it was cool cuz i had no clue they were gunna come play with me but it was deffinitly a good day to choose..i took matt tgsk home around 10 after he got pissed at my mom and we kinda realized we wernt gunna go to disney which made me very sad..and i hate her and everyone got mad at her so it was ok but it didnt really do any good but then jason and matt had to go play with the matt kid so they left and me and missy and brooke went to taco bell and then decided to go to zion lunch and they kicked me away so that sucked but i saw bobby thoner and his cute little butt..and i played with grant and sarah after i droped brooke and missy and julie off at school..we got julie somewhere along teh way btw..but sarahs was fun..i love her so much and tomorow i think im gunna pawn my camera and get some money =) haha bye 5

[Monday, 11th April, 2005 @ 8:39pm] i think im taking a break from smoking for a little bit..like 2 weeks is my goal..we'll see how it works out but im just gunna try and save some money and maybe not eat as much for a while cuz id be happier if i was rich and skinny..haha umm my mom just told me to go in her room for a sec so im going to go but if anyone wants to come play with me feel more than welcome to..i dont even give a shit who right now..even though i have my preferences =) . . . . . . . . . 4

[Thursday, 7th April, 2005 @ 10:45pm] i havnt updated in a while i think so i dont really know what all i did but i do know that i went on a date haha how stupid does that sound but it was fun and i hung out with this black gay guy in rehab thats like a really good fasion designer or something before my date haha i hung out with sarah and grant alot and matt tgsk spent the night a few times my moms way to bipolar lately but whatever i droped out of school officially today =) and matt came with me and i had to fucking run around the school for like 3450473467456 hours trying to find where all my teachers were that period and matt got bored i guess and decided to talk to this crazy lady on drugs and he ended up being called a druggie and he had to leave and i had breakfast at atlanta bread company and it was good and now im tired and im gunna try to make my mom go to her room so i can sleep 1

[Thursday, 31st March, 2005 @ 2:51pm] i didnt get the job cuz they already filled the 2 morning spots but thats ok cuz i dont think i really want a job yet..but i need one and then i went to sarahs and we went and hung out iwth this kid who can do this card trick that like seriously freaks teh shit out of me..then we went to the gas station by my house and met grant there and then we ended up at my house and my mom shoved her hands up her crotch in front of sarahs face and it was teh most awkward thing in the world grant took sarah home at like 8:30 and we went to the gas station to get a blank cd from matt but he didnt have any but i didnt really want to go home so i just hung out there for the rest of hte night and he walked me home haha and i took a shower guys!! i was so dirty yesterday it made me sad and now im clean =) and i wanted to go to zion and see keeley and stuff but my mommy got mad cuz shes a stupid fucking bitch but its ok cuz i made her a drink and hten she was happy again but i still didnt get to go to zion and grant would have brought me back home but now hes just comming over at like 5 or something and i have to go

i love my new sweatshirt <3 [Wednesday, 30th March, 2005 @ 2:10pm] im getting a job! at pac sun..hopefully im going in today to try and get an interview and then ill have something to do once in awhile and i get disscounts on their socks..which is in my opinion the best part =) OH! grant called me yesterday and he asked me to play =D he hasnt done that in like way forever to long..it made me so happy and so i went and played with him and this kid jordan..to whom i am now property of haha and we went to the weird "homeless" kid that goes to teh gas station sometimes place of work and was like "i need a favor..can i have 7$?" and he just gave it to me..no questions asked so that was pretty cool we did some other shit too and then around like 10ish or something he left but i missed him a lot and hahahahaha he told me my mom started screaming at him cuz he "ripped my heart out" or osme shit and hahaha i just think thats funny then matt tgsk (the gas station kid) came over last night at like 1 or osmething and he brought bubbles and we went to mizner and it wasnt as bubbly as i had hopped for but wuteva it was still cool..me and sarah are gunna go back one night with like 945678439057860 gallons of soap next time she comes over..i just decided I LOVE SARAH btw guys..shes a wonderful little girl and everyone should hug her when they see her cuz she deserves it and give her money too if you want cuz im sure shed appreciate it very much..(if anyone gives you money cuz of this sarah your splitting it with me ok?) well matt (tgsk) just left like 20 mins ago or osmething cuz he had to go throw water balloons at people =) and i have to clean so bye 2

[Tuesday, 29th March, 2005 @ 11:38pm] UzUrMoney4Crack: <3 I LOVE SARAH <3 a wise uncle: <3 I WANT KEELY <3 UzUrMoney4Crack: =) a wise uncle: +)

[Monday, 28th March, 2005 @ 7:24am] im not sure whe teh last time i updated but ive been hanging out with matt the gas staion kid a lot =) and sarah and some other people too..matt ryan caem over the other night and i dyed his hair blue and my hair is now bright bright pink..i love it a lot i got frisked by the cops the other day and according to one of the fucking ass hole cops kept telling me i was on my way to jail and so i laughed and he kept saying "what you tink this is funny and then i dunno he was just an asshole so i was kinda bitch back to him and matt teh gs station kid got a ticket cuz i didnt have my registration so i gave him money to pay for it and its all cool and i went to lion country safari with matt teh gas station kid and a few of his friends and it was unbelieveable fun and now im gunna post some pictures cuz itll be fun ( life is getting better )

[Tuesday, 15th March, 2005 @ 8:37pm] matt the gas staion kid spent the night again last night and he makes me happy but my mom doesnt..and i guess ive been kicked out or something she threatened to call the cops on me and whatever but she touched me first and im still a minor so i think thats probably why she didnt..not that i like beat teh shit out of her or anything close to it even but hey its my mom..what the fuck would you expect....so i took some sleeping pills and then i wanted a cigarette so i snuck out and ran to the gas station..not a good idea btw..everything was like spining..it was cool though i made it back alive and my mom didnt notice i left so thats cool..but i need to go find someone to live with or some bullshit..and tomorow im finishing teh practice test..maybe..if i can get there somehow and then maybe ill get my fucking GED.....but seriously its the easyest thing ever..everyone should drop out and get their GED..no jk cuz thats the losers way out..fuck ya it is i dunno i told my mom id brb cuz i was going to think..and so she gave me her credit card and told me to get her things she needs to survive for a couple days..im so tempted to buy a huge bottle of rat posion and jsut hand it to her nad be like here and just see what she does...hahahahahah wow that really could be funny.....today kinda sucked btw 3

[Monday, 14th March, 2005 @ 10:47am] i dunno when i think about the past few days i cant really do much besides laugh..cuz its just weird and stupid my moms totally gone off the deep end..but thats ok cuz amber laporta just told me about the dead person she found..yep shes at the library..but matt the gas station kid came over one night after work and hung out till like 3 the next afternoon and then he went back to work and then came back over after work again and we watched dancer in the dark and clerks and then it was like 5:30am and so he went back to work again..and he told his roommate he was out drinking..which is funny if you think about where he lives..but hes a totally awesome kid..i promise =) and then sarah came over and spent the night and that was fun..as always and we went to the beach and i dont really remember whatever else we did but thats ok and then i was like gunna go to sleep and jason called me and was like come to this party with me and i was like.."umm ok...mom can i go to a party with jason?".."no".."he said i was alowed"..."fine whatever"..so ya i left and i didnt end up going to a party but thats cool..and i saw matt ryan at work and then at like 2..somehow..for some reason we came to my house and my mom wasnt sleeping still and she was being such a bitch but the next morning we went to the everglades and played with alligators and i dunno im tired so bye

[Tuesday, 8th March, 2005 @ 1:02pm] im taking the practice test for my g.e.d tomorrow if i pass it im allowed to take the real g.e.d but it costs 50$ just to take it so that sucks according to my mother i need to be institutionalized i think she needs to take some cyinide(sp?)....a lot of it would be nice and she thinks im suicidle..and i think shes trying to make me kill myself but im not sucidle so im not going to kill myself so i guess that sucks for her but i have to go get some miso soup and cigarettes

[Monday, 7th March, 2005 @ 11:26am] im at teh library cuz im finding shit out on how to get my G.E.D but so id ecided id post this weekend was so much fun and i met some cool kids..sarahs friends but now theyre my friends too and i tink the matt kid and charlie and sarah might be coming over after school and i hope that when i get home my moms gone..hahaim like tearing because of how much i want her to be gone when i get home..shes fucking crazy and i cant deal with it and its making me so sad lately..but when i left sarahs last night wich was a vry good night btw i went to the gas statioon and this fuckign crazy ass lady spilled gas all over herself and then sprayed lysol on hersefl to cover it up and me and matt were just laughing our asses off and me and him and sarah are going to see interpol on the 18th and hes getting us in for free which is totally cool anddd he was like do you want flowers and i was like hell ya and so he gave be like 2 dozen roses and it made me so happy..but wen i went home my mom decided to go on a joy ride and passed out while driving and ran over all these fucking mailboxes and shit and shes fine and all but like i dunno i just cant handle being her daughter much longer..haha im like gunna start crying and i have to talk to these people to find out about my G.E.D and i just need a break from shit but sarha if you read this get charlie to bring you and matt over today...PLEASEEEE..like you have no idea

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